True that I am no saint, but then again, the tendency to strive to be so had always been there. I grow up being fed with ideas that one should always try to do good. Not that I had succeeded, especially during my primary school days.
If one can name me in those days, one can easily tag me as two face, thief, green eye monster, and lazy bump, out of a few names. Really, that even spread on till part of my young adulthood.
Seriously, now in adulthood, I am wondering how many of us have our hands clean? In my current life, I strive for the principles, to keep them, to let them guide me in many ways.
Yet, in one or two scenarios, when people had wronged me in their own ways, I had turned my back on them and walked away without saying much. Seriously, what good can come out by blackening each other's face? Best be done by keeping silence and let things run their course, nothing is forever, impermanence itself is the only permanence.
The mind perceive things only in ways that it functions, and many a times these days, I do not understand things. When I react according to my norms, I have to sadly confess that I do not comprehend matters in a positive way, and I ended up bringing matters to battlefield, hurting both myself and the other party, for I know not ways to take it lightly, with humour and getting it solved in the way, can I pray for that path be shown? For we all "know" that when we start looking, we would find it, if not, nothing forever.
I am not sure of a lot of things, maybe that is how the things' true nature be revealed to me. I now have to face my fear of uncertainty.
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